babydoll's thoughtful night xxx

23.55
wendyhouse

24th jan 2012

got back an hour ago or so.
hoping for a quiet drink and a chat ...
well good luck to me as i seem to magnet men when out ...

stressed from work and all the personal things as well that goes with what,

but cant help to think of the man that is somewhere out there and i hope it would last :)))

days become night,
and days just go by..
without realizing that days had gone ...

and when the work had finished,
i think to myself ,i am home ,i am home...
but really,what is home...?

so,i have to entertain myself...
thinking,all is fine...
tomorrow is another day and the sun will shine :)

funny as what me and english rose had defined..
she said to me yesterday on conversation,what i have with my relationship with my Sd
is not applicable on the blog of Sugarbabies and Sugardaddies! haha

i know i was lucky and i would never find anybody,who would be the same
to me like what i have ...

but as no one would understand,i am not perfect and i am only human,
things could be planned and things could be thought of beforehand..
but nothing is for sure until it happens...
i sit on my own and think of the times that had gone,i smile and remember the things that
were done and were special for not only me but for Him too..

i cant count the ways of the days that He makes everything special and sometimes  forget,
its not me,not me,in there that is entitled to all of it...
his time,his life...
and i musn't forget...

my time is borrowed,and anytime it can go,
without me realizing it is all for ...?

male boss asked me,did i enjoy my friday night?
and he said suddenly,'is he good to you?,
i swear i cant answer,i didnt understand the question at first,
but i realized he was asking about who i was with and obviously thought it is a MAN..
but in all honesty,i just cant answer it,
there is no definition for other people of who i am,or who i am with?

but i told myself after wards,its ok,
i am who i am and maybe one day...
i would be able to explain myself openly,but not yet,not today..

so today,had a drink and tried to relax  xxx
and still all the time whats on my mind...

what is he doing,
who is he with...
i miss him,i love him xxx

but i should carry on and control how i feel
where is he?~

is he happy? i think of him...

but most importantly, would he be thinking of me? xxxx